paying for a taxi ride dat cost me
took a cab home, spend a few hours at home, bumming ard, left the house hours later,
only to find the taxi still there... went up to the driver and realized his meter was still running and had come up to abt $60.
smacked myself on the head for being so stupid...
den i realized it was all a dream...
how scary was dat?
think dat happened abt a couple of days ago... but wasn't in the mood to blog abt it.
was leaving the house dis morning for work, den heard the all-too-familiar sound of the engines of the E2C.
looked up and sure enough, there it was flying low in the sky.
somehow, even tho i've left the squadron, i still feel dat feeling of pride knowing dat it's my squardon dat's flying. somehow wish i was enjoying life as a specialist there, doing nothing and getting a 2k plus take home pay... but i'm not regretting leaving the airforce...
i think one of the most important things in life is to never regret.
i think there's no point. so wat if i regret leaving the force, there's nothing i can do, i've left it liao.
i only can look forward.
think the same goes for a relationship. but i think it's not so much a case of there's nothing i can do.
but rather, in every relationship, there's always something good in it... no matter how badly it turned out.
so there shd not be any reason for regrets in a relationship. unless of coz i guess it can happen where u get kinda "conned" into thinking the guy/girl was an angel through his/her deceptive behaviour.
but looking on the bright side, it's also a lesson in finding out abt the other person more before committing yourself to a person in a relationship. but of coz we'll never wat's to happen.
sometimes i guess we juz have to trust and hope dat the other person is not some wolf in sheep clothing.
had dinner w justin and his mum. have not seen her in a long time and i guess it was good to see her after such a long time. while over dinner, justin was talking abt finding another gf once i've gotten over tmg.
i said i'm in no hurry. if i meet another girl, so be it. and if i don't, it doesn't matter either...
but while walking home from bt batok central, i was juz wondering to myself...
if u've experienced the joys of being in a relationship, the wonders of having someone special to love and to hold, to cry to in times of sadness and to laugh with in times of happiness,
will you be able to live the life of singlehood once more? i think no matter how close ur good frens are to you,
they can never replace the position of a bf/gf. dat's how i feel...
occasionally, i wonder to myself if i shd give tmg a call and ask her to give us another try...
but almost immediately i tell myself off, dat i shd not think so much abt the past liao...
wat's past is past. and there's no bringing it back. but i juz have only the memories to cherish and to remember this wonderful relationship by.
i wonder if i can ever find another girl like her...
life's full of uncertainties and i sure as hell dun like it at the moment...
a couple of uncertainties in ur life is fine once in a while.
but not lots of uncertainties all at the same time...
oh well... gota sleep liao...
nite nite... sweet dreams.. i love you.
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